My 1st Blog Post after 9 Years!

Hey, I am back to blogging again, and I am grateful for the accomplishment I had as a mom for both humans and dogs during the past years.

How time flies and, looking back at the challenges of my fertility journey has made me a stronger person now! I am a mom of two beautiful boys, 10 and 8 years old, and I am so proud that I am persistent enough to have my dream come true!

The phase of wanting to set up a complete family has passed, and now a different life challenges.

Considering myself lucky, my family recently upgraded our HDB house to an apartment/condo during the Covid period of 2021, and this is a commitment to our income. I am having some contradictions before making this decision, as I am planning to leave my current job and lead a SAHM lifestyle instead but somehow thinking about the possibility of not having a job will mean leading a simpler lifestyle such as sacrificing our holidays and eating out lesser in restaurants, though it is only for weekends affair.

So now, since we have landed ourselves with a housing commitment, there is no way I could get out of a job but this is also my biggest concern ever because I am sick and tired of working in the corporate especially since I am already in it for 17 years and really wanted to consider step-down and find something I enjoy and make a living out of it. 

Is this considered a mid-life crisis when there is no motivation in career anymore, and looking towards something simpler in life? 

I am also trying to counsel myself by thinking I am one lucky person who is not on the retrenchment list recently when most of my be-loved colleagues were out of jobs due to the restructuring in the company. It has been almost 2 months, but most of them have not landed themselves in a job yet and this is something I must be thankful for with the constant income I am still receiving to date. Gosh! But on the other hand, how I hoped I am one of them because I wished to take a break from work and still have the retrenchment package to survive for the next few months to a year while slowly landing myself in another job to my liking. 

Though I am not a Christian, somehow, I believed in God, and he has a plan for everyone, and the encounters in life are planned for our own good and for a reason. 

Thanks to this blogging site, I am feeling better at this point of writing. I was looking at ways to relieve my anxiety feeling from the internet and came across the idea of blogging as one of the recommendations.

Not sure why I am feeling rather down recently, am thinking if I am facing perimenopausal symptoms or anxiety problems or maybe there isn't someone I could really talk with about my feeling, but this is a good place to vent!